The only thing I can do now is have hope for the future, so my hope is that the major surgery that took place in Göteborg will be a complete success. I hope that I can remove the tracheotomy tube in around 2-3 months, after the operation has healed, and they are sure the scars won't come back. I also hope for a miracle that will make the papilloma virus go away for good, so I don't have to have more operations and once again risk having breathing problems due to new scar tissue. My wish is that I will finally feel healthy enough to go on a world tour to visit all my lovely IRC friends and give them real life hugs since they've been so supportive and given me so much comfort.
The future given by my Doctor
(Picture of my doctor, Hans Ejnell, Göteborg)
Doctor Hans Ejnell can of course not guarantee any miracles, but he can promise me that I will be able to breathe without the tracheotomy tube in the future. He also thinks that I will not need to have as many operations a year as I've had so far, and that the papilloma itself is a minor problem right now because it is in its non-agressive stage, and should only be removed from those places where it affects the voice or breathing. The doctor, in whom I have complete faith, is a very nice man and is very giving as a person with lots of warm humor. When I mentioned my wish to have children in the future he said that it won't be a problem and that I could start trying for them in a year or so. He believes that by then I will have enough strength and health to attempt it. The risk to the baby will be minimal if I only have an operation twice or three times a year.